It has been rough lately but we persevere despite being attacked and put down. Struggles are a part of recovery no matter how long you have been in recovery. I will share my own experience. As Trouble flared in a group I found myself thinking back to my old ways of escape. I stopped myself but also had other thoughts. Some are familiar and others have long been suppressed by my working recovery.
24 hours ago I was ready to ‘throw in the towel’ and let things end with respect to that group ( I created it to help and felt it was being destroyed). My fellowship of recovery talked me out of it. But still the pain was there. I considered drinking away my sorrows but that would solve nothing. I began to have my severe depression set in and even as I prepared to write this considered the unthinkable.
It is because I am not perfect and yet have people around me who support recovery that such things do not happen. I will not let my depression, my addiction or other people prevent me from my recovery.
August 17, 18 and 19 (Friday, Saturday and Sunday)
Thoughts for the weekend:
Recovery is knowing you can’t do it alone and that you don’t have to.
Hope can come from pain.
Recovery is allowing yourself to feel but not allowing the feelings to control your actions.